Insomnia. I've been plagued by it most of my life. I try to fight it, but fail. I blame lack of sleep as one of the contributing factors to my weight problem (new research supposedly proves this).
It's really a vicious cycle. You can't sleep, so you stay awake. Maybe have a little snack. Then you really can't lay down to sleep because you need to digest what you just ate. I no longer snack when I have insomnia...it would be so counter-productive to my weight loss process. Though the urge to nosh is overwhelming right now. I guess this is where blogging becomes useful about now. Tonight I will be victorious! Now if I could just sleep.
Sleep is a necessary evil for me. I really get bored with the process of trying to fall asleep, then once I do, I wake-up. This happens about four to seven times a night; then I have to deal with the whole dreadful falling asleep thing again...over and over.
Unfortunately, when I finally do get into that good sleep zone it's around 5:00 AM. Not a good thing if have to get-up early...luckily most days my schedule has some flexibility and I can sleep until 10. But still, I think I would be much better off if I could just fall asleep and stay asleep on my husband's schedule. He's like clockwork every night. Starts snoring only a few minutes after laying down to sleep.
Speaking of his snoring, his snoring is annoying and perhaps responsible for some of my night time wakings. But at the same time, I find it oddly comforting. I miss hearing it when he's away.
I used to snore. I don't anymore thanks to my lovely C-PAP machine. Yes, one of the consequences of being heavy is sleep apnea. After loosing over 50 lbs, my doctor reduced my pressure level. He promises to do so until I hopefully no longer need the machine. That helps motivate me to not snack right now...not having to sleep wrenched into a mask hooked into a machine. Not having to carry it with me on airplanes. Not having to clean it every morning and set it up every night. I'm dreaming of that day!
Dreaming. I really need to get started on that.
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